| conflicted like whoa. |
[Aug. 7th, 2004|02:32 am] |
i hate days when i feel so very conflicted about everything. or maybe i just feel sort of unbalanced.
today started out great, i was in a great mood and excited about going on a date with my sweetie. i went shopping with leesha , she tred on about 38729384728 things but nothing turned out for her, which sucked but there's always another day. personally, i try not to shop too much because i'm so critical of myself and it really isn't too great for my mental health.
then we had about an hour and fifteen mins to kill before i had to be home for my "date", so we decided to go to the local sushi place for a snack. BIG MISTAKE. there were about 15 people in there, not really *that* busy, especially for a friday night. but, nevertheless, we waited 45 minutes for our order, THEN the waitress says it'll be about another 15-20 minutes because they *just* started on our order. needless to say, we got it to go and left a way shitty tip; something neither of us usually does.
went to carrabbas with my honey and got a couple bellinis and a margherita pizza. right before we left, there was a crazy accident in front of the restaurant; a motocyclist got hit by an 18-wheeler. an acquaintance of mine was the first there, and gave the motorcyclist CPR. i guess the poor cyclist was coughing up blood and three quarters of the way dead. my friend got really upset (understandably) and needed awhile outside to compose himself. it was a very sobering event. then my fiance mentions that three good friends of ours drive motorcycles and work in the area so we wrer worried it was one of them. when we got home we called around and know for sure that 2 of them are home safe and sound. my ex-room mate has the other friend's phone number because i lost it, and she wont call me back and give it to me so i can check on him. ugh.
so. after all that i'm in a shitty mood. |
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| Ahh, what a fantastic dayyyyy.. |
[Jul. 31st, 2004|02:43 am] |
What a great day all in all.
I went to Holla's party, just for an hour or so, to see her. Homegirl was drinkin' like whoa but she had a good time. She's always so good that she deserves it once in awhile! I am going to miss her so much. She really is one of the truest friends I've ever had; behind me thick and thin, yo.
My sweetie and I are as happy as always. Got some lovin' when we got home, going to go lay in bed whith him and watch some Food Network. (YUM!)
I can wait to move to SF. Seriously. Out of this dump and into a better life. I'm going to call Leesha tomorrow and see if she'd be up for lunch and takin' my fool ass to work! Ha.
I love my job, I swear. Everyone there is so f'n cool, I love my managers.. I'm really going to miss the place once I'm gone. BUT, I am building some stellar references being there. It's sort hush-hush but my life has taken a swing in a different direction, career-wise. But I dont wanna jump the gun and make a big expose out it just yet!
Til tomorrow, good night to all, I know I'll have sweet dreams.... |
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| Damn, now I'm really voting for Kerry... |
[Jul. 29th, 2004|11:01 pm] |
because he may have gotten me a new room mate!
A girl emailed me today and said she's going to be down here from August 23rd to November 3rd, which is um, IDEAL. She's going to be down here working on the campaign. Fantastic!
Also today I talked to my mum and she is going to pay all my tuition in San Francisco. Which is also awesome. Now all I have to do is come up with the moving money, and since I'm thinking about getting a second job, that shouldn't be *too* hard. Found a bunch of cute apartments. They're not picture perfect, they dont have washer and dryers in the unit, but I guess that's what you do when you start out. Unfortunately I had to learn that the hard way, but at least I'm leaning, right?
Holla's goodbye party is tomorrow. I really want to go because I'm going to miss her like whoa. But I'm so glad she's doing something for herself that makes her happy, because she certainly deserves it.
Off too my paninis now! |
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| things that i love.. |
[Jul. 27th, 2004|03:25 pm] |
+ my fiance
+ that my fiance is now 21 (happy birthday sweetheart)
+ having this crazy voluptuous hair even though 99% of the time it's a pain in the ass
+ my sister!
+ san francisco
+ progress
+ independents
+ panini
+ my job
+ friends who keep their promises
+ green skirts
+ knowing who i am
+ being a free spirit
+ not being afraid
..... haha i'm so contemplative. more later. |
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| And so it begins... |
[Jul. 22nd, 2004|11:51 pm] |
Wow. I never thought I would actually use this thing. I've had it for over a year, but just recently have I felt like I needed to write. So, this being the first entry, I guess I'm going to start with the changes that have been happening as of late.
I turned 22 and it seemed like everything changed. Not because of my age, but it all just happened around that time. I lived with my fiance and a room mate, I had a job that was okay but not great. And now it is all different.
I no longer have the room mate. Somehow I think this is for the better. They led a fast lifestyle that was incompatible with my oh-so-domestic almost-marriage... reminded me of how I was when I was eighteen. Funny thing is , they're the same age as me. But different people grow up at different rates, and really, I dont think this person is ready to be grown up yet. Truthfully, I feel almost guilty about the entire situation. Plus it's almost ironic that I told a dear friend of mine the previous night that I felt like I was losing it with said person. I dont know. I'm not quite ready to unravel that ball of thread yet.
I lost my okay job over something trivial and now I have a job that I adore. Maybe it's the mere change. Maybe it's the better tips :) Who knows?
So. The rundown is. Girl. 22. Better job. Room mate-less. And feeling optimistic.
Lates. |
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